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I know I had severe mental health, depression, mental disorders in the last 41 years

Dec 14, 2024

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·       I know I had severe mental health, mental disorders in the last 41 years

·       I know I had severe addictions (pornography and alcohol) in the last 41 years

·       I know I had severe depression, anxiety and negativity in the last 41 years

·       I know I struggled with loneliness, depression and anxiety when I was alone in Australia, Egypt, Singapore and India in the last 41 years

·       I know I struggled with suicidal thoughts, helplessness,  and depression when I was alone in Australia, Egypt, Singapore and India in the last 41 years

·       I know I struggled with fear of death, ageing  and loneliness in the last 41 years

·       I know I struggled infinite times to be around people when I tried to be social in the last 41 years

·       I know I struggled infinite times with public speaking, speaking, communicating, discussing, debating, reasoning and mixing with people in the last 41 years

·       I know I tried to be social infinite times in the last 41 years

·       I know I tried to be friendly to others infinite times in the last 41 years

·       I know I never liked to be diplomatic, politically correct when I was around people infinite times in the last 41 years

·       I know I am the most anti-social man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most uncivilised, unapologetic, unforgiving, merciless, cruel man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most feared, timid man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most terrifying man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most thoughtful man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most kind, compassionate, loving  man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most steadfast, firm minded, unyielding man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most destructive, and creative man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most satisfied man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most reasonable, rationale man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most truthful (Satya Narayana) man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most handsome, attractive, good-looking man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most reliable, dependable, honest, honourable, upright, principled, truthful, ethical, virtuous, incorruptible, unimpeachable, above suspicion, responsible, sensible, level-headed, loyal, faithful, true-blue, staunch, steadfast, constant, unswerving, unwavering, safe, secure, guaranteed, unfailing, foolproof, never-failing, reputable, straight-up, full of integrity, worthy of trust, Trustworthy man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I am the most determined, firm, resolute, purposeful, sure, self-disciplined, strong-willed, uncompromising, unyielding, unbending, unwavering, unswerving, unfaltering, unshakeable, persistent, persevering, tenacious, stubborn, dedicated, committed man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I have black marks on my face because of the Sun rays. I know I have infinite black moles on my body, face and neck.

·       I know I look bone tired, exhausted and worn out.

·       I know I have grey hair on my face, body and head.

·       I know I feel lost for words when people are around.

·       My mother-in-law and father-in-law are visiting me in Melbourn for three months, but they don’t know I am Satya Narayana.

·       My father-in-law tells me about every single problem (in small villages, towns, districts and cities) in India. I listen to him carefully.

·       My mother-in-law tells me about every single problem (in small villages, towns, districts and cities)  in India. I listen to her carefully.

·       I know I have ZERO manners.

·       I have starved sperms in human form using “please, thank you, yes, no, greetings, cheers” to death in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I know I am the skinniest man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I eat infinite times more than the most obese/fat man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am the most voracious eater (just like my God Narasimha) in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am the hungriest man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am the most competitive man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am the most goal oriented, purposeful man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am the wealthiest, richest (with < $20K in life savings) man ever born on earth in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I am Satya Narayana.

·       I know when my right-hand wrist hurts because of working on laptop I use my other hand.

·       I know I stand up for some time when my lower back hurts for sitting 15-17 hours a day.

·       I know my neck hurts, shoulders hurt, upper body hurts, my buttocks hurt, my thighs hurt, my knees hurt.

·       I know I am God Narayana.

·       I know my skin colour is brown. I know I have changed my skin colour, body, mind and senses to my God Narayana’s skin colour, body, mind and senses in Yagna in January 2023

·       I know I have not cut my nails, and hair for months.

·       I know I look untidy, weak, timid.

·       I know I have the shittiest English, filthiest accent in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I will not even shit, piss or spit on any English speaking man, woman, girl, boy, male, female, animate, inanimate in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I don’t understand when people tell me their first name on the phone when I call them for work. They hang up straight away.

·       I know I have not ironed my clothes for months.

·       I know I have been wearing  two old dirty suits worth less than $100 for years, one of them for more than 10 years.

·       I know I have been driving $1000 valuation car for more than 8 years.

·       I know I will not even touch, spit, piss, fuck any White skin vagina, woman, girl in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I have starved sperms in human form speaking, learning, talking, listening and writing English to death in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I have starved sperms in human form speaking, learning, talking, listening and writing Marathi, Hindi, Sanskrit, any Indian language in the last 13.8 billion years to death  in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I know I will not even touch, spit, piss, fuck any Brahmin vagina, woman, girl in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I read, watch, listen to everyone (animate and inanimate) carefully to solve their problems in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I read, watch, listen to news, media, journalists, anchors, debaters, hosts and experts carefully to solve their problems in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I read comments of everyone (animate and inanimate) on YouTube, internet, social media, and newspapers to solve their problems in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know my beloved earth is just a minuscule grain(particle) in my infinite creations. I will never an credit for creating Vaikuntha on this earth or any earth anywhere in my infinite universes and infinite creations.

·       I know I will never deceive, fool, exploit.

·       I know I will never engage in falsehood, deceit, bias, logic, reasoning, rationale and debates.

·       I know I will never preach, justify and explain.

·       I know I will never negotiate.

·       I know I will never use diplomacy.

·       I know I will never forgive adharmic.

·       I know I will not even touch, spit, piss, fuck any White skin Jewish, Christian, Catholic, Evangelical vagina, woman, girl in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I will not even touch, spit, piss, fuck any White skin Australian, Canadian, NZ, French, German, British, Irish, Scottish, American, European vagina, woman, girl in the last 13.8 billion years.

·       I know I created bishops, pastors, missionaries, popes, nuns, Catholics, churches, Christianity, Christians, Evangelicals, The Bible, Old and New Testaments, and Revelations  

·       I know I created Muslims, Mosques, Haj, Mecca, Madina, Islam, Religious Conversions and Islamic Preachers.

·        I know I created Judaism, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Jainism and Buddhism.

·       I know I created religion, religious beliefs and religious identities.  

·       I know I created Zakir Naik and Mar Marri Emmanuel.

·       I know I created Xi Jinping, Donald Trump, Joe Biden, Keir Starmer, Peter Dutton, Anthony Albanese, Narendra Modi, Rahul Gandhi, Benjamin Netanyahu, Ali Khamenei, Assad, Vladimir Putin, Politicians and Leaders in 195 countries.

·       I know I created Elon Musk, Arnab Goswamy, Vivek Ramaswamy, Sean Hannity, Tucker Carlson, Jake Tapper, Palki Sharma, Andrew Bolt, Laura Tingle, Chris Kenny.

·       I know I created politicians, lawmakers, employees, businessmen, businesswomen, investors, managers, CEOs, CIOs, CTOs, CFOs, CROs, CHROs, Board Members, Chairmen, Chairwomen, Executives, and Leaders

·       I know I created right and wrong, truth and falsehood, good and evil, real and unreal.

·       I know I created dharma and adharma, sat and asat, shubh and ashubh.

·       I know I created Brahmins, Shudra, Vaishya, Kshatriya, Castes, Varna, temples, religions, priests, astrologers, fortune tellers, devotees and life/death rituals.

·       I know I created touchability and untouchability.

·       I know I created lust, hate, greed, hunger, poverty, filth, exploitation, money, wealth, fear, jealousy, and anger.

·       I know I created, destroyed and sustained everything in the last 13.8 billion years

·       I know I created material and spiritual wealth.

·       I know I created obsession with sex, body, mind and senses.

·       I know I created thinking, imagination, thought and mind.

·       I know I create, sustain and destroy.

·       I know I allow animate to create, sustain and destroy.

·       I know I allow living/organic to create, sustain and destroy.

·       I know I allow inanimate to create, sustain and destroy.

·       I know I allow  non-living to create, sustain and destroy.

·       I know incarnate when dharma declines.

·       I know this world is upheld by dharma.

·       I know I allowed millions of sperms in human form to exploit, abuse, discriminate against me infinite times.

·       I know I allowed millions of sperms in human form to treat me like an animal, an alien, a beggar infinite times.

·       I know I allowed millions of sperms in human form make me feel worthless, useless, inferior infinite times.

·       I know I created Maya (Illusions of mind).

·       I know this is my Maya (illusion).

·       I know I am the greatest Mayavi (the creator of illusions of mind)

·       I know I am Leela Purushottam Sri Krishna

·       I know I am Maryada Purushottam Sri Ram. I have burnt my very thought, my very vision of looking at other women, girls in the last 13.8 billion years in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I know I am Maryada Purushottam Sri Ram. I have burnt my very thought, my very vision of looking at body, mind and senses of other women, girls in the last 13.8 billion years in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I know I am Maryada Purushottam Sri Ram. I have burnt my very notion, idea, thought of marrying, fucking, touching, kissing, and sleeping with other women, girls in the last 13.8 billion years in Yagna in January 2023.

·       I know I am Maryada Purushottam Sri Ram. I have burnt my very ability of marrying, fucking, touching, kissing, and sleeping with other women, girls in the last 13.8 billion years in Yagna in January 2023.

 

·       I read, watch, listen – Is Canada in a recession? Netanyahu addresses Iranians after fall of Assad in Syria, Hundreds gather in Damascus for Syrian activist's funeral. Syria’s rebel leader suspends parliament and constitution. Islamic Forces Threaten Christians and Possibly Israel. Anthony Fauci being issued pardon would be ‘hugely divisive’.

·       I read, watch, listen –  Peter Dutton takes ‘biggest electoral risk in history’ with nuclear plan. Nuclear the ‘only way’ for Australia to achieve its energy objectives. ‘Reasonable estimation’: Peter Dutton announces $331 billion nuclear energy plan. Peter Dutton’s nuclear plan ‘much more credible’ than Albanese’s. Australia has a ‘number of serious advantages’ in adopting nuclear energy. Peter Dutton is ‘desperate to avoid scrutiny’ on nuclear energy plans. Nuclear power will bring ‘cheaper’ electricity costs for Australians: Peter Dutton. Indigenous group votes to ban Welcome to Country ceremonies on their ancestral land. ‘Master stroke’ move for Trump to invite Xi Jinping to inauguration

·       I read, watch, listen –  ‘Woke DEI’: Google’s new Christmas ad goes down the ‘rainbow pathway’. Dutton’s nuclear plan a ‘quarter trillion cheaper’ than Albanese’s. Labor knocks the Coalition’s $330bn nuclear plan. The government has described the Coalition's nuclear energy plan as a complete farce and cast doubt over their commitment to net zero. Peter Dutton's nuclear power proposal relies on a smaller economy and higher carbon emissions, and would cost more than $300 billion, according to his long-awaited costing. The proposal would still see more than half of Australia's power come from renewables, but coal would be kept for longer to fill the gap before nuclear plants arrive in 12 years' time at the earliest. The costing, prepared by Frontier Economics, found a system with nuclear would be cheaper over a 25-year period than a system without it.

·       I read, watch, listen – 'Wanted' posters for CEOs appear in New York. The killing of UnitedHealthcare CEO Brian Thompson in Midtown Manhattan has shaken C-Suites across the country, with corporations scrambling to protect their senior executives as police warn of an elevated near-term threat against business leaders. Border Patrol warns agents of cartel threats. Israeli strike on Iran’s nuclear facilities ‘would be fully justified’: John Bolton.

·       I read, watch, listen – Indian PM Narendra Modi performs darshan and pooja at Hanuman Mandir in Prayagraj, Uttar Pradesh. Indian PM Narendra Modi performs pooja at Akshay Vata Vriksh in Prayagraj, Uttar Pradesh. Next 25 years belong to India’s Amrit Generation - a generation that will build a Viksit Bharat: Indian PM Narendra Modi. Maharashtra Deputy CM Ajit Pawar faces income tax heat; assets worth Rs 1,000 crore seized. Chanting the Ashta Laxmi Kuber Mantra creates a frequency that boosts the chanter's aura, attracting money and wealth quickly. Chanting this mantra will erase all obstructions, resulting in a perfect balance of health, riches, and prosperity. These mantras also draw positive energy, resulting in ease of mind. VERY EFFECTIVE ASHTA LAKSHMI KUBER MANTRA FOR FINANCIAL GROWTH, MONEY, WEALTH, AND SUCCESS.

·       I read, watch, listen, sing, dance, write – BEST BOLLYWOOD, TOLLYWOOD INSTRUMENTAL Song Collections. Instrumental Saxophone - Flute - Piano – Violin

·       I read, watch, listen, sing, dance, write – BEST HOLLYWOOD INSTRUMENTAL Song Collections. Instrumental Saxophone - Flute - Piano - Violin

·       I read, watch, listen, sing, dance, write – Top 100 Legendary Instrumental Guitar Love Songs Of All Time. The most beautiful melody in the world touch my Heart, Relaxing Guitar Music. Chant the powerful Khamanaputri Mantra to invite peace, positivity, and divine blessings into life. Embrace the spiritual energy and transform my soul. Ram Rameti Rameti Rame Raame Manorame. उग्रं वीरं महाविष्णुं ज्वलन्तं सर्वतोमुखम्। नृसिंहं भीषणं भद्रं मृत्युमृत्युं नमाम्यहम् ॥

·       I read, watch, listen, sing, dance, write – Shiv Tandav Stotram – Armonian. नारायण सूक्तम. अयि गिरिनन्दिनि - महिषासुर मर्दिनी स्तोत्र. नवग्रह शांति मंत्र, 9 ग्रहों की शांति . Aatma Rama Ananda Ramana. शक्ति की उपासना - Complete Shakti Mantra - Success in new venture and remove all financial problems

·       I read, watch, listen – The mood has changed in America, Liz Peek says. Thank you, USA, for voting Trump. The whole world will become a better place. Trump calls for ceasefire in Ukraine. 'We are living in the age of Trump': Why Time chose president-elect as Person of the Year. Labor will run ‘negative scare campaign’ against Dutton’s nuclear plan

·       I read, watch, listen – I was born in Australia, and I want to leave. Australia has become very difficult to live comfortable. Corruption within the government is getting worse with every election. It's gotten so expensive to go anywhere that we stay at home and leave the house only for a walk, shopping, or for medical appointments. I'm seriously looking into selling up and moving to an Asian country. I remember Australia in the 70's ... what a great Country we had. We were Socially and Nationally united and rock solid. There was little to no division or internal Social unrest between us because we were all pulling together. Now we have been pulled apart for the last 40 years by waves of mass migration and Social and Political divisiveness along with Big Government. The standard of living in this Nation has fallen through the floor. We are a shadow of our selves ... as is Britain, Canada and Western Europe ... we all know why. The more ECONOMIC REFUGEES that leave Australia, the better things will get.

·       I read, watch, listen – Defying Hijab Rules in Iran Now Punishable by Death. The Iranian government's new hijab law imposes severe penalties, including death or up to 15 years in prison, on women who defy strict dress codes. This oppressive legislation targets personal freedom, silencing women while legitimising public harassment and punishment. Amnesty International has condemned the law, which criminalises even sending unveiled videos abroad. Despite the repression, Iranian women continue to resist, standing firm against the regime's control. Radical Islam is the snake hiding in the grass, Moderate Islam is the grass hiding the snake. India: Hindu vs MUSLIM, Israel: Jews vs MUSLIM, Europe and America: Christian vs MUSLIM, Myanmar:-Buddhist vs Muslim (Rohingya), Bangladesh:-Hindu vs Muslim, Middle East Countries:- Shia Muslim vs Sunni Muslim, Nigeria:-Christian vs Muslim, Sudan:- Muslim vs Muslim, Pakistan:- Muslim vs Muslim (shiya Sunni), Pakistan:-Christian/Hindu vs Muslim, Afghanistan:- Muslim vs Muslim , Nepal:- Hindu vs Muslim. And they say Islam is the most peaceful religion.

 

·       I read, watch, listen – Why Immigrants Are Leaving Australia in Record Numbers? In recent years, Australia has experienced a shocking trend: more immigrants are leaving Australia than arriving. Other factors such as mental health struggles, long visa processes, and rising crime rates are making life difficult for many newcomers. We also touch on the unstable economy and cultural adjustment issues that push immigrants to reconsider their future in Australia.

·       I read, watch, listen – 3D-Printed Guns: How Ghost Firearms Are Changing Crime

·       I read, watch, listen – India Equipped with Advanced Weapons. "Who am I" ? By Lord Krishna Revealed in Bhagvad Gita. दुविधा में सही निर्णय कैसे ले ? by Lord Krishna. जो होता हैं अच्छे के लिये होता हैं || Whatever happens happens for good || Krishna Gyan

·       I read, watch, listen –जब अकेलापन महसूस हो तो इसे सुन लेना | Best Krishna Motivational Speech | Krishna Vani. कोई अपको अपमानित करे तो बदला कैसे ले ? जो होता है,अच्छे के लिए होता है इसलिए क्यों व्यर्थ की चिंता करते हो. Depression treatment by lord Krishna अपने क्रोध पर नियंत्रण कैसे करें. जीवन का सबसे बड़ा ज्ञान | The greatest wisdom of life. Caitlin Clark hits back at critics over "white privilege" remark. Palestinian officials confirm more than 30 people killed in Israeli airstrike

 

यं यं यं यक्षरूपं दशदिशिविदितं भूमिकम्पायमानं

सं सं संहारमूर्तिं शिरमुकुटजटा शेखरं चन्द्रबिम्बम् ।

दं दं दं दीर्घकायं विकृतनखमुखं चोर्ध्वरोमंकरालं

पं पं पं पापनाशं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ १॥

 

रं रं रं रक्तवर्णं कटिकटिततनुं तीक्ष्णदंष्ट्राकरालं

घं घं घं घोष घोषं घ घ घ घ घटितं घर्झरं घोरनादम् ।

कं कं कं कालपाशं ध्रुक्ध्रुक्ध्रुकितं ज्वालितं कामदाहं 

तं तं तं दिव्यदेहं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ २॥ 

 

लं लं लं लम्बदन्तं ल ल ल ल ललितं दीर्घजिह्वाकरालं

धूं धूं धूं धूम्रवर्णं स्फुटविकटमुखं भास्करं भीमरूपम् ।

रुं रुं रुं रुण्डमालं रवितमनियतं ताम्रनेत्रं करालं

नं नं नं नग्नभूषं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ३॥

 

वं वं वं वायुवेगं नतजनसदयं ब्रह्मसारं परन्तं

खं खं खं खड्गहस्तं त्रिभुवनविलयं भास्करं भीमरूपम् ।

चं चं चं चं चलित्वाऽचल चल चलिता चालितं भूमिचक्रं

मं मं मं मायिरूपं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ४॥

 

शं शं शं शङ्खहस्तं शशिकरधवलं मोक्षसम्पूर्णतेजं

मं मं मं मं महान्तं कुलमकुलकुलं मन्त्रगुप्तं सुनित्यम् ।

यं यं यं भूतनाथं किलिकिलिकिलितं बालकेलिप्रधानं

अं अं अं अन्तरिक्षं  प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ५॥

 

खं खं खं खड्गभेदं विषममृतमयं कालकालं करालं

क्षं क्षं क्षं क्षिप्रवेगं दहदहदहनं तप्तसन्दीप्यमानम् ।

हूं हूं हूंकारनादं प्रकटितगहनं गर्जितैर्भूमिकम्पं 

बं बं बं बाललीलं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ६॥

 

सं सं सं सिद्धियोगं सकलगुणमखं देवदेवं प्रसन्नं

पं पं पं पद्मनाभं हरिहरमयनं चन्द्रसूर्याग्निनेत्रम् ।

ऐं ऐं ऐश्वर्यनाथं सततभयहरं पूर्वदेवस्वरूपं

रौं रौं रौं रौद्ररूपं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ७॥

 

हं हं हं हंसयानं हसितकलहकं मुक्तयोगाट्टहासं

धं धं धं नेत्ररूपं शिरमुकुटजटाबन्धबन्धाग्रहस्तम् ।

टं टं टङ्कारनादं त्रिदशलटलटं कामगर्वापहारं

भ्रूं भ्रूं भ्रूं भूतनाथं प्रणमत सततं भैरवं क्षेत्रपालम् ॥ ८॥